Testimony

This past week, actually, the past couple of weeks have strengthened my testimony so much and I just have to share it somehow right now!  A week ago today, I went to the Logan temple to do baptisms for the dead and it was the first time since August.  I still don't understand why on earth I didn't go sooner, since the temple has always been such a huge part of my life, but anyway, I also went again today - to try and get back in the habit of weekly temple attendance and I just have to say, I have not felt this calm, peaceful, strong, and sure of what I'm doing since I've come up to school!  I love the Gospel so much!  I know that my Heavenly Father lives and loves me and knows exactly who I am, I know that Jesus is the Christ, He is my older brother and best friend.  I know that temples are the house of the Lord!  I know that the scriptures are the word of God and that the Spirit uses them to communicate.  I also know with a surety that this Gospel is the true Gospel, in its fullness!  I also know that prayer works - if we ask with a sincere heart, He does hear us and will answer us, even though it is in His time and it may not be the answer we expect or want, and the answer may not come in a way that we expect.  I know that the Atonement is so very real and that we can always repent and I know that our Heavenly Father loves us so much that he hopes and wishes that each of us will repent so we can return to live with him someday.  To finish, I just have to say again how much I LOVE this Gospel, my knowledge of the Gospel, and temples!  :)

We're All Human

So lately, I've found myself being incredibly hard on myself.  I am continually thinking about how I can become better and tend to focus more on my faults and weaknesses than my strengths.  However, when I think about other people, I notice only the positives and am always trying to point out their strengths and am trying to encourage them and tell them that their ideas/image of themselves isn't what the world sees.  I realized this weekend that when I was asked to write 5 things that I liked about someone I appreciate/admire/care about, the only problem that I had was confining their traits to only 5!  But I when I was asked to write down 5 things I like about myself, I struggled to write anything and I know I wasn't alone.  This has become a huge wake-up call to me.  As a society, we are constantly trying to better ourselves, which isn't bad in moderation, but once your 'faults' overwhelm your strengths, something is wrong.
We're constantly told not to judge others, and to recognize that people are just human afterall and that no one is perfect.  However, we hold ourselves to a standard of perfection, or near perfection.  What we need to recognize is that this is unattainable in this life.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that everyone shouldn't work out faults that they have.  I'm saying that people (myself included) need to stop focusing on their own faults and recognize how incredible they are!

Guy Rant...

Sorry but tonight I just need to rant...  So just know that you have been warned!

Why is it that there are no guys in my life right now to be found that are interested in what I have to offer??  Well wait, let me clarify my former statement...  Why is it that there are no non-awkward guys that are close enough to my current location that are willing to date?  I mean seriously, I'm told that I have a lot going for me...  I've been told that I'm pretty, I'm nice, I'm amazing, etc. and yet, I haven't been on a serious date, EVER!  Yes, I've gone on a few pity/friend dates and a few dance dates, and I guess there may have been one (two AT THE MOST) that were interested in becoming serious, but at the time I was in high school and not looking for a serious relationship...  Now here I am in college with only A SINGLE date under my sleeve so far and it was a total FRIEND date!!  I mean seriously?!
It just drives me insane that guys don't date anymore!  They decide to hang out and to just be friends but right now, I want something more than just another good guy friend...  Ugh!

Okay...  I think I'm okay/slightly better now...  Well, maybe...  I guess this will have to do since I don't really want a very detailed rant to be posted on the internet for everyone to see, but this will have to do for now...

Theme Songs

Its been so long...  Too long!  But I've decided that recently I've been recognizing so many songs that just feel like theme songs to my life, so I want to post a running list of all of these songs...
Only Exception by Paramore
There's a Fine, Fine, Line from Avenue Q
I'm Not that Girl from Wicked